I've been trying to be more productive with my time by trying to write a decent story and here's an extraction from it . It's raw and unedited. I didn't even check if it'll make me sound bad in any way. Have fun judging!...
Here it goes :
It’s easier to like myself when I’m trying to be modest, or I think it is. It’s easier to say , “Oh , I’m ugly,I’m dumb, I’m a worthless piece of crap “ in my head because there’s a 2nd person in my head who’ll be pitying me. Of course, it’s all me, just that there are many different mes all in one skinny frame. It gets confusing when I try to fit all of the different mes into one picture,so that they’ll fit nicely. It’s really like a jigsaw puzzle. There’s a jigsaw puzzle waiting to be fixed in me. Sometimes I feel like I’ve fitted everything nicely and perfectly into one picture and suddenly “BAM!” there’s this surprise where a person or something comes just to mess the puzzle up again. Then I’ll have to pick all the pieces up and try to fit them again. But everytime I do that, I’ll end up with a different picture. A new piece comes in. Some of the pieces are a little wrinkled and torn because that person ( or that something ) who messed it up made sure that he / she / it made a huge mess. He / she / it made sure it disfigured the jigsaw puzzle in me. But it’s not always a bad new picture. You know how sometimes you get the scars at the right places? Yeah, it’s something like that. It’s like that person might disfigure you at the right places and the picture in you will look cooler, it’ll be more flawed but in a way which gives it more character. As I was saying, it’s easier to try and be modest than be arrogant. It’s hard to say , “I’m hot and smart and all that “ and let the 2nd person in me judge me. The 2nd person in me will tell me , “ Remember that ugly picture you took? Remember ALL the ugly pictures you’ve taken? You’re a really ugly piece of shit.”
Sorry for talking all about me,me,me. Society or the media would label me “full of myself “ if they knew what was going on in my head. But fuck society, fuck the media . What seems to be “full of myself “ is actually me thinking intrapersonal-ly. I’m an intrapersonal thinker, no kidding , I took the test on BBC. Is it my fault that I’m the uncool sort of thinker ? No fucking way.
Green Tip : Don't use tissue or toilet paper to clean up the mess you made by jerking off. Lay newspapers on the ground. Or old brochures. Recycle, be creative.
- TANK
